MIRROR AND I

Today
again I failed.
Again I got insulted by others.
Again I didn’t complete my work .
Again I don’t have any excuse .
Again I had listened to another story.

And again I am repeating this all words.

Today I want an answer.

Hey god, can you give me an answer?

Hey, you are listening or not.
Give me  an answer you know everything . Tell me why I failed always .

But again I don’t get the answer.
Again god didn’t help me.

Again I ask myself … should I ask my friend ?
No . They can not understand my feelings.

Ummm should I ask my parents ?

No no no I can’t .. yesterday my father scolded me .
and my mother also supported him.

Then who will help ?

And again I am weeping .

Again my heart is getting pain.
Now I am not able to think .
I want to die.

But again I can’t because I don’t have guts.

I am crying . I should not weep now I should wash my eyes .otherwise anyone will come .

Now let go the washroom . I got up and going in front of the mirror.

I see myself in front the MIRROR .

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suddenly I am looking at myself continue.

I am not able to understand what is happening.

I am scared.
I don’t know why I am staring myself.

Few minute after I feels that I am taking myself in front of the mirror.

I am confused what is happening.
But I don’t want to leave.
I don’t want to go back .

Somewhere I am getting myself

Then few minutes after I heard something .

” Hey ”

Who said hey

What is happening

Again another sound come

” Hey look at me ”

I scared .. I want to go back .

” Hey look at me .. don’t go back. ”

” Just look in the mirror. ”

” I am you ”

” I am your answer ”

I stopped.. mirror is talking with me or I am in the mirror .

I said .. hey

Mirror  replied  : hey …. what happened.

Now I feel comfortable .

I said you can not understand my feeling you are the mirror.

Mirror : why you cry every time .

Me : because I failed again and again and again .

Mirror : who told you that you are failed.

Me : rubbish !! I know myself I failed many times .

Mirror : tell me in which race you failed.

Me : I didn't participate the race .

Mirror : then how you failed ?

I think myself how i failed ? I am not in the race then how i failed.

Mirror : what you are thinking to tell me.

Me : i ..i..i..i am not good in study.

Mirror : so .

Me : but my parents only depend on a study.

Mirror : so… just do

Me : they doesn’t know that nowadays so many opportunities came .. technologies and modernisation came.  I can do another thing .

Mirror : what you want to be .

Me : I don’t know but I am doing engineering..

Mirror : but you are not good in study.

Me : ya but I am an average student. I never fail in school.

Mirror : then why you cry always
Why you slap yourself ?

Me : because I don’t have any talent .
My friends are goods in music and others are good in sports.
and they all have a relationship.

Mirror : ohh you are feeling jealousy

Me : no I respect them but I am not like my friends they are active .

Mirror : and what your friends doesn’t  have .

Me : i am 6ft they are not.
         I respect others talent
But they tease.
Somewhere I am good in other activity .
They have some bad habits but I don’t have…

Mirror : it means you are better than your friends.

Me : I don’t know but maybe I am good.

Mirror : but you failed . Have you ever complete your race.

Me : I told you I am not in the race .

Mirror : if you in the race then ?

Me : I don’t care how many participates are there . How many students are sitting in the exam hall?

They all are not my body parts why I count peoples .. if I going to give an exam that time I have a one pan one sheet 3 hours one mind I will write myself .. I don’t care who is writing or not.

Mirror : if you are not in the race .
              If you don’t care how   many  peoples are participating . Then why you cry.

I was looking continuously in the mirror
I started thinking all of my failures.
I started thinking how many times I didn’t understand my reality.

I took long breath .. and see the Mirror
My eyes are shining now .

And I have only one word to say in front of the Mirror.

Thank you Mirror
Now I got my answer
Now I knew who I am .

Only you can give my answer
The only mirror can solve my problem

It means only I can do what I want to do.
It means only I can care myself .
Only I can motivate myself.

Only MIRROR AND I ………..